I feel bad being happy when someone that I love is being sad at the other place. I feel bad he was crying when he told me about his family and at the same time I was too damn happy with my friends. I feel bad how hurt he is, his heart sank seeing his beloved mother and sister lying weakly on the hospital bed. I feel bad not doing anything even visiting them at the hospital because I don't have much time left to stay here in Johor Bahru. I feel bad to myself. And if you read this, I'm so sorry my dear. I love you. Take care of yourself and your family. I'm sorry.